Black Sheep Brainchild

(If you’re experiencing suicidal thoughts or are in danger of harming yourself, this is a mental health emergency. Contact The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 24/7 by calling or texting 988.)

Something that needs to be spoken about more is mental health. We just came through one of the hardest times of the year for so many. Every day the scanners are going off with calls about someone dying by suicide or attempting…

Did you know that there are two types of ideation? Active SI is when someone has direct thoughts of and plans for suicide. But there is also a passive type of ideation.

Passive SI is when someone has thoughts such as “I don’t want to wake up”, “I don’t want to be here anymore”, or other similar things, but they do not have a plan to take action. This might not seem like a big deal to some – I have even heard someone say “well, everyone has those thoughts” – but this isn’t the case.

Please understand – if you have either type of ideations – that you can reach out. You are not alone. I know it fewls that way. I know that this place can be so shitty…but I also know that you have made it through every bad day, every bad moment, thus far. You matter. Your presence here matters. You might not be able to see it right now. You might feel fine and then suddenly those thoughts take hold… It just takes one moment. Please take that moment to connect with help. Please talk about it with someone. My biggest wish is that you have someone in your life you can trust with these thoughts . There are people you may not know yet that are there when you call to help get you through these moments. Strangers on tue internet have helped each other out so many times…

There is someone there.

If someone reaches out to you, please do not disregard their words. If you are unable yourself, guide them to someone who can help. Mental health struggles are real. They can affect anyone at any time. Depression and suicidal ideation aren’t picky about someone’s socioeconomic status, gender, marital status, sexual orientation, race, ethnicity, religion, or age. Someone doesn’t have to “act depressed” to struggle with SI. Often those who struggle are excellent at masking that fact and appear to be completely the opposite of that picture in your head.

But it just takes one moment.

Scattered thoughts from my scattered brain. This has been weighing heavily on me lately. I have struggled myself, and still do. It is a war that must be fought one battle at a time.

Holding space for you.